Happy Birthday

琴，生日快乐！欢迎加入23岁的大家庭！千万别觉得自己老了一岁，告诉自己，你又成长了一年，变得越成熟越有魅力哦！哈哈，我相信你是第一次收到我的生日礼物吧，虽然这分礼物并不是太贵重，却代表我小小的一份心意，希望你会喜欢啦！ 拼图照片 + 生日卡 + 这一封特别的祝贺语，每一样东西都是我亲力亲为的，够诚意了吧？我又把“第一次”给了你， 你可要负责任哦，别看完了就丢在一个角落，要好好收藏呀！好像是我逼着你负责任 =D

8月11日，除了是一个对我很重要的人，你的生日，对我来说也是另一个蛮有意义的日子。记得吗？去年的今天，是我第一天在新加坡上班，虽然只有短短的四个月时间！你去年的生日祝贺语还是我越国寄给你的！唉，哪像某些人，连我的生日都会忘记。结果是我几天后call你时才告诉我你忙到忘记了，哇，这就是你给我最好的礼物！看来我因该再努力点才能提高我在你心目中的地位啦，哈哈！其实你今年收到的礼物，早在去年的今天我就想要送给你了，不过当时人力物力有限，我的计划就泡汤了。我在背后为你做了些小动作哦，当然我相信你也感觉不到啦！因为我认识的你就是一个感觉迟钝的女生，不把话说明白，你就不会get到 >.< 基本上你就只有这个小毛病，其它方面都很好很棒，10分满分的话，你已经做到9.9分了，就差那么0.1分就是完美的女人了！哈哈，好像过分夸张了！我想说的是，很高兴有你一个这么好的女生朋友。

我们相识的日子，自中学到现在，应该有差不多10年了吧！以往的点点滴滴，一起吃喝玩乐，一起开心，一起辛苦，大家一起走过的日子，现在都变成不可磨灭的回忆了。忘了什么时候开始和你熟络，中学？毕业后？我想大概是从去年你搬到Kuchai Lama之后吧。怎么说呢，自从你住在Kuchai Lama，我们见面的次数就多了，一起出来喝茶，打麻将，去Cheras pasar malam，不晓得你还有印象吗？然后，坐你车来回KL, 在车上和你聊天，听你说家里的事，朋友的事，感情方面的问题。接着college毕业后去旅行，再到我去新加坡工作，开始有和你通电话的习惯，大家接触多了，我才慢慢对你有深一层的了解。不懂你有没有发现，我在新加坡的那段时间和你联络的次数较频密，因为曾几何时，我把你当成我的精神寄托了，甚至有点不能自拔。老实说，真的很庆幸有你的出现，很感激你陪我度过不少寂寞的夜晚。若我之前有给你带来任何困扰的话，我对你说声抱歉！因为当时你也没对我抱怨或投诉之类的，所以我就当作没问题咯！

写着写着，我不期然回想起是否有些只属于我们的回忆。好难想哦，说真的是不多啦，我倒是想到几个比较特别的，不过或许对你来说很普通。当我刚开始在新加坡工作时，你过不久也到JB了，周末有空的话我还蛮常约你出去。记得有一次我们约了圣聪在City Square看戏，那天他有做工迟出来，我早上先去找你。我记得那天下午你说要弄cheese cake, so我们就去Mutiara买些材料好像牛油，牛奶，乳酪，还有些用具啦。看着你像个小女人兴奋的东找西找的样子，很可爱很纯真，虽然只是短短的时间，但我很享受陪在你身边的感觉，看着你笑，我忽然有种幸福的滋味。这因该是我第一次和你单独约会，而又最自然最开心的一次。不知道几时还有机会吃你亲手做的蛋糕呢？

接着另一次是我约你去新加坡看Fashion show, 为了不让你一个人，所以那天我先到City Square等你。吃了午餐，逛了逛街，我们才过新加坡，虽然你有催我快点，结果到Paragon时节目已经结束了，果然是我会做的事情哦，换作是其他人你肯定来得及，哈哈！不过还好当天有另一场show，不然真的让你白跑一趟。吃过晚餐，迁就你弟弟来载你的时间，我们再一次搭地铁送你回JB。虽然我没和你一起过custom，不过我陪你等巴士，看着你上了车后才离开。接着算好时间，知道你大概到JB custom了就打给你。陪你聊天，听你投诉你弟弟怎么那么迟还没到，我知道你当时真的很累而且很狼狈，所以我一直找话题逗你笑（虽然我不懂这是否见效）终于等到你弟弟来了，你上了车但没立刻和我说再见，结果我们又聊了一段时间才挂电。我想说的是，这是我和你那么多通电话中，最依依不舍的一次。其实在这前一晚，我是多么期待这一天的来临，我甚至整晚都睡不好。本来你说有可能会在我的地方过夜，我是多么的开心，因为终于有机会和你有那么近距离的接触了。但第二天见面时你说会回家，我突然好失望哦，不过我还是隐藏起这份失落感，全程表现得很自然。结果到最后一些想说的话，想做的事还是没办到。其实哦，我很想知道一样事情，就是你觉得我那天的表现怎样？我已经尝试做到最好了，希望这对你来说还算是个不太差的回忆吧！就算不是也别告诉我吧，哈哈！

好啦，成年旧事就不提那么多了！这也是我心底的一些真实感觉，并不是像之前写的故事，这都是我想表达的心声。不管多久没见面，不管多久没联络，我会永远记得我们这份情缘，永远珍惜这份友谊。希望你在往后的日子都过得开开心心，就算遇到什么不顺心的事也不要轻易放弃，朋友会永远在你身边，我一定会撑你的，当然大前提是你要让我知道啦！水瓶座的人是忽冷忽热的，要是我忽略了什么细节，务必要告诉我呀！哈哈，以你那种独立的性格，一定觉得自己要承担很多事情吧，凡事尽了力就好，千万别给自己太大的压力！要疼自己多一些，对自己好一点，痛要说出来，别把事情都憋在心里！: )

祝你有个难忘的23岁生日，但愿在往后的日子里都能和你庆祝生日，当然也包括你帮我庆祝我的生日啦！

嘿，圣诞节快乐！第一次在X'mas收到我的礼物吧，我也是第一次送，又给了你我的＂第一次＂哦！你已经看过这对耳环，我还告诉你想把它送给莉，记得吗？其实，我一开始就是打算买来当作你的生日礼物，那天去你家送了你包包和外套，在厅看戏时想把耳环送给你，再趁机亲手为你戴上，不过我怕你接受不来，所以才想到莉。哈哈，千万别告诉她哦，其实，我要你知道，对我来说，送礼物给你是不需要任何理由的。好几次和你逛街，我看到有趣的东西要买给你，你就问我买来干嘛，弄到我哭笑不得，最好就把钱省上来给你用更好对吗？如果我说在我的monthly budget里有S$100是准备用在你身上的，你相信吗？我知道你不是个＇拜金＇的女生啦，但我是很希望可以让自己喜欢的人花自己的钱，感觉还蛮不错的。或许我们的关系还没好到让你那么做吧。

怎么说呢，自从你住在Kuchai Lama，我们见面的次数就越来越多，一起出来喝茶，去灵盈家打麻将，去cheras pasar malam，在灵盈家过夜，去Fitness First运动，这些我都记得很清楚。然后，坐你车来回KL,在车上和你聊天，听你说家里的事，朋友的事，感情方面的问题。从那时候开始，我就知道不对劲了，因为我发觉自己已经深深被你影响了。不懂你还记得吗，你说过你和papa mama去跑pasar malam，你会买abang alik和街尾的豆浆水。我竟然傻到去做同样的事情，就在你们一大班＇女童军＇来我家玩lami那天晚上。越和你有近距离的接触，那种感觉就越强烈。

你身边总是有太多男生围绕着你，每当我想进一步关心你，都会有好多顾虑。Bangkok trip， 你生病了，看着你辛苦，我是多么想留在你房间照顾你，但是其他男生已经比我早一步做了。接着，你和Daniel之间，我不知道你们之间发生过什么事，我相信你曾经对他动过心，因为那天在Paragon提起他时，你的声音一度沙哑，然后眼睛红红，或许是我多心了，不过那一刻我真的心疼你，有股冲动想把你抱在怀里。还好我没那么做，不然肯定吓跑你，哈。

有一次在电聊中你问，你是我的谁。当时我随口说了些废话带过了。其实，你还是我心里面那＂彩色的钢琴＂，原来我对你的感觉还是和从前一样。我不是个细心体贴的人，不过我会把你放在第一，我会把全部心机放在你身上，只要你愿意，我一定尽力不让你受半点委屈，要你每天都带着笑容过日子。我不是个口甜舌滑的人，我点子不多也不太会说些甜言蜜语来哄你开心。不过我会陪在你身边，和你分享开心的事，和你分担伤心和烦恼。我希望可以让你每一分每一秒都是世界上最幸福快乐的女生。I'll always be there for you, no matter how far it is.

wow..din touch my diary for almost 1 month, 三分钟热度? hopefully i m not la. actually i was just a bit busy during the month, rushing for report and stay in office until quite late. came back home alr 9 sth, got no laptop to use somemore. well, my original intention to write this diary is bcoz of her, cant get myself too close with her, then find an alternative way to express my feeling. but now i m ok with the situation, slowly adapt my current life style, though i'll think of her quite often, miss her quite much..

things change overtime, never expect that i will hang out with her so frequent. since the day she moved to kuchai lama, everything changed. it is a good start for us? at least for me la, got more chances to meet her and more luckily, she stays at JB now, easier for me to find her compared to if she stays at other place.

just finish a 2-day-trip this week, had fun at both JB and s'pore. this is a wonderful and memorable moment that i never ever experienced, i appreciate it very much. dunno how does she feel? happy? if yes, i think i am not the person to make her happy la. perhaps i will onli make a trip bcome boring, i think so. i know what kind of character i am, i am not supposed to be the one who can bring happiness to ppl around me, too bad to say like tat, i lack of sense of humour, haa. took many pic during the trip, but i like this very much. forget when is the last time i took couple pic with her, just too long until i dun remember.

just back to mtk with her..well nth happened within these 6 hours, had a little conversation + sleep zzz. the onli event tat made me really care about is that, there is actually somebody wan her to be his gal fren, guess so. realise that i m such a person who easily gives up sth, mayb just too tired. i need more courages, and confidence as well. though u show no interest to start a relationship wit him, but i think this kind of event would happen more often after this. Fren, or more than a fren..this is no longer an important issue. hopefully i can spend more time together with you..

got my 1st pay slip today, when i took it from my colleague, i smiled. dunno how to describe my feeling, but it is different from tat day when i received cheque from my financial controller. mayb this time i got a document to show to my mum, my 1st achievement in my life, haha.. going back to home tis week, wanna pass mid autumn festival wit my family, has been working in s'pore for almost 1 month lo, it is time to go back to see them..of coz i need to bring my 'things' back to home as well la, no space to keep those items in s'pore place.

going back to mtk with her on this friday, somehow i think i can feel normal when i see her, doing my best to treat her as a fren but i know that she actually means more than a fren in the bottom of my heart. i need time to calm down, so far i think i do well up to now. try to be more steady, show my concern to her but not telling her the truth. i dunno wad do i wan at the moment, seriously, there r many uncertainties..fully focus on my work? i think after christmas ba, i will do sth on tat day. if the consequence is bad, i would stop everything..

slept very late last few days, really feel tired when i m working, fishing all the time..but luckily my company is having warehouse sales these few days, dun hav to stay in office all the time, got more outdoor activities la..must live a normal life as b4 la, must have a good rest ^^

she just reached JB tonight, starts working tmr. hopefully she wont work until too stressful, have a caring superior n nice colleagues, of coz nobody lock her as target la, hee.. k, all the best to you, my dear. looking forward of dating on this coming saturday, dun cancel like last time again o..

just passed my weekends..write sth b4 i get to sleep, it is a bit late + hot tonight..and today is my first time to come back home after 12 since i came to s'pore. when i open my eyes next morning, i need to work again..

well, went to jalan jalan at shopping centre (JEC) nearby my house tis afternoon, i actually got nth much to do there, ate a curry puff and ask for price of my new spec, plan to change my old one..JEC is quite small, onli 2 floors including ground floor, there is a cinema inside, but looks like very lousy. went to jurong regional library after that, i think tis will be my camping place later on, there are many reading materials inside + pretty nice environment, can enjoy the air cond. read a chinese novel today, not finish yet but will definitely cont to read it.met my cousin then went to find seng chung..took drama from him then yam cha..such a busy day..better than doing nth at home.. k, time to sleep.WORKING DAY @.@