got my 1st pay slip today, when i took it from my colleague, i smiled. dunno how to describe my feeling, but it is different from tat day when i received cheque from my financial controller. mayb this time i got a document to show to my mum, my 1st achievement in my life, haha.. going back to home tis week, wanna pass mid autumn festival wit my family, has been working in s'pore for almost 1 month lo, it is time to go back to see them..of coz i need to bring my 'things' back to home as well la, no space to keep those items in s'pore place.

going back to mtk with her on this friday, somehow i think i can feel normal when i see her, doing my best to treat her as a fren but i know that she actually means more than a fren in the bottom of my heart. i need time to calm down, so far i think i do well up to now. try to be more steady, show my concern to her but not telling her the truth. i dunno wad do i wan at the moment, seriously, there r many uncertainties..fully focus on my work? i think after christmas ba, i will do sth on tat day. if the consequence is bad, i would stop everything..