嘿，圣诞节快乐！第一次在X'mas收到我的礼物吧，我也是第一次送，又给了你我的＂第一次＂哦！你已经看过这对耳环，我还告诉你想把它送给莉，记得吗？其实，我一开始就是打算买来当作你的生日礼物，那天去你家送了你包包和外套，在厅看戏时想把耳环送给你，再趁机亲手为你戴上，不过我怕你接受不来，所以才想到莉。哈哈，千万别告诉她哦，其实，我要你知道，对我来说，送礼物给你是不需要任何理由的。好几次和你逛街，我看到有趣的东西要买给你，你就问我买来干嘛，弄到我哭笑不得，最好就把钱省上来给你用更好对吗？如果我说在我的monthly budget里有S$100是准备用在你身上的，你相信吗？我知道你不是个＇拜金＇的女生啦，但我是很希望可以让自己喜欢的人花自己的钱，感觉还蛮不错的。或许我们的关系还没好到让你那么做吧。

怎么说呢，自从你住在Kuchai Lama，我们见面的次数就越来越多，一起出来喝茶，去灵盈家打麻将，去cheras pasar malam，在灵盈家过夜，去Fitness First运动，这些我都记得很清楚。然后，坐你车来回KL,在车上和你聊天，听你说家里的事，朋友的事，感情方面的问题。从那时候开始，我就知道不对劲了，因为我发觉自己已经深深被你影响了。不懂你还记得吗，你说过你和papa mama去跑pasar malam，你会买abang alik和街尾的豆浆水。我竟然傻到去做同样的事情，就在你们一大班＇女童军＇来我家玩lami那天晚上。越和你有近距离的接触，那种感觉就越强烈。

你身边总是有太多男生围绕着你，每当我想进一步关心你，都会有好多顾虑。Bangkok trip， 你生病了，看着你辛苦，我是多么想留在你房间照顾你，但是其他男生已经比我早一步做了。接着，你和Daniel之间，我不知道你们之间发生过什么事，我相信你曾经对他动过心，因为那天在Paragon提起他时，你的声音一度沙哑，然后眼睛红红，或许是我多心了，不过那一刻我真的心疼你，有股冲动想把你抱在怀里。还好我没那么做，不然肯定吓跑你，哈。

有一次在电聊中你问，你是我的谁。当时我随口说了些废话带过了。其实，你还是我心里面那＂彩色的钢琴＂，原来我对你的感觉还是和从前一样。我不是个细心体贴的人，不过我会把你放在第一，我会把全部心机放在你身上，只要你愿意，我一定尽力不让你受半点委屈，要你每天都带着笑容过日子。我不是个口甜舌滑的人，我点子不多也不太会说些甜言蜜语来哄你开心。不过我会陪在你身边，和你分享开心的事，和你分担伤心和烦恼。我希望可以让你每一分每一秒都是世界上最幸福快乐的女生。I'll always be there for you, no matter how far it is.

wow..din touch my diary for almost 1 month, 三分钟热度? hopefully i m not la. actually i was just a bit busy during the month, rushing for report and stay in office until quite late. came back home alr 9 sth, got no laptop to use somemore. well, my original intention to write this diary is bcoz of her, cant get myself too close with her, then find an alternative way to express my feeling. but now i m ok with the situation, slowly adapt my current life style, though i'll think of her quite often, miss her quite much..

things change overtime, never expect that i will hang out with her so frequent. since the day she moved to kuchai lama, everything changed. it is a good start for us? at least for me la, got more chances to meet her and more luckily, she stays at JB now, easier for me to find her compared to if she stays at other place.

just finish a 2-day-trip this week, had fun at both JB and s'pore. this is a wonderful and memorable moment that i never ever experienced, i appreciate it very much. dunno how does she feel? happy? if yes, i think i am not the person to make her happy la. perhaps i will onli make a trip bcome boring, i think so. i know what kind of character i am, i am not supposed to be the one who can bring happiness to ppl around me, too bad to say like tat, i lack of sense of humour, haa. took many pic during the trip, but i like this very much. forget when is the last time i took couple pic with her, just too long until i dun remember.